Like many others’ during the New Year, I have big plans, big goals and big expectations. I know that sounds a little ‘new age’ but these big plans and big goals have been in the works for quite some time. Almost 5 months already. You see this year I am going to do something pretty big.
I am going to retire in September.
That sounds far more dramatic than it actually is but yes, essentially, as of the end of September 2017 I will be retiring from my current career as a Wedding Planner… at the ripe old age of 35. Part of me would like to say that this is because I made my millions and I’m off to buy a Tropical Island and bath in the glistening seas but it’s not that kind of story… yet.
For the past 13-years I have been planning weddings. For the past 10-years I have been running my own business. For the past decade I’ve given my life over to goals and plans that no longer serve me.
It’s been a career of highs and lows, of milestones I never dreamed off and it’s now time to put that to an end to it. I’ve built a career, business and brand from nothing – twice and I’m excited to leave that all behind me ! Don’t get me wrong, I am sure I’ll miss the clients, the direction and purpose of my day but I am very excited for what the future may hold… even though I don’t know exactly what that is yet.
Yes, that is right… me, who plans and organises for a living, doesn’t have a concrete plan in mind for her future and I bloody love it !
The ‘long’ road to retirement …
I realised something major during the Summer of 2016. I wasn’t happy. My marriage was in trouble, big trouble and I realised that something had to change, or it would be over. It would have been easy to blame my husband, focus on his faults, to attack him and play the ‘woe is me card’ but when I really looked at things I realised that it was me. [And ok, a little of him.] But essentially my expectations and reality were so askew that I was surprised I haven’t seen it sooner.
Once I took my foot of the revolving door that had become our life, I realised what I thought I was working towards, was not what I [we] wanted. It was not good for either of us and a drastic change was needed.
My life lacked two major things:
Balance and Happiness [ true happiness ].
Looking at your life critically is hard. To an outside person, you can seem like you have it all, a great marriage, successful career and fun life… but appearance are deceiving, even to yourself ! When I looked deep into myself I realised that while I enjoyed my career and was proud of what I had achieved, it was also the cause of many of the problems and challenges I faced… it was also obvious that it was standing in the way of other life goals. So I made the decision to retire, reprioritize and refocus my life.
Retiring from a career and business like Wedding Planning takes time and planning [irony !] and so it will be September 2017 before everything is in place. But I am going to enjoy the 9 remaining months I have in a career that I have cherished, but that I am excited to give up all the same !!
So what is next for me ?
This is what I am working on right now… I have been contemplating my ‘life’s purpose’ for months [ well really years now ]and things are finally starting to fall into place for me now… especially after having read this very interesting article 7 Strange Questions that help you find your Life’s Purpose.
I have a few exciting goals that I know are going to be my focus [ all of which I will share with you in good time ], but right now I am asking myself some tough questions, some very tough questions… like:
Who am I ?
What do I really want in life ?
What can I do with my time that is important ?
What makes me happiest in life ?
How would I like to be remembered ?
Putting yourself and your life in your own spotlight is hard, let me tell you. Actually figuring out proper answers to these questions and more is tough. I don’t have them all yet, but the journey is certainly interesting, refreshing and much needed.
So as it’s the New Year and many turn to new goals, new yous etc etc … what big goals do you have for yourself this year ?